For a moment

For a moment intuition kicked in, the reality I will never be a part of your blood, life or family for a moment I’m not a part of your life, your circle, your photos for this moment I do not exist I am, I was and still a memory, a shell of existence for a …

Mia’s Fears

Coach asked me today why I was holding back, what is it I feared? “Losing. It’s simple I don’t wanna lose. Why would  I train this hard and for so long if all I’m gonna do is lose”.  Stupid question, he must’ve seen the thoughts cross my face cos then he said  “Mia, don’t be …

Daddy dearest…

There are some days where as a stubborn person in life means you do not learn anything but your own opinions and hear the sound of your own voice. Then there are times where you realise how much you learn from listening to yourself and the experiences you’ve had. But no matter how hard I …

Stream of consciousness 

Esteemed soul, divine purpose drive to my minds eye of truth take back the streams of consciousness that drives me to mad endeavours of momentary suicide to die or not to die but to discuss the righteousness of others that befell Me inherited wickedness of deceit but who is the deceiver, them or me lie …

Upstart – Mia’s sprint

My time of the morning, cool crisp wind in my face. No fucker bothering me or pushing me to challenge myself.  A few familiar faces pass, we do what we always do, jog by without acknowledgement. Sunday, my day, my time. Church day, their time. He’s praying for me,  gotta push my brother outta my head. Mia – this …

Upstart

‘Upstart’ is the name of my short film, it’s about a female boxer who lives in the shadow of her brother’s success as a former boxer. Mia is seeking to find who she is and where she fits in the world. Who am I? Well, I am Maria Thomas. I’m an Actress, Producer, Writer and …

Half full, half empty

Hand on heart, no words escape my lips, the truth of a past I cannot relive. Moments lost, memories gained an injustice to the memories unnamed. Where are you now? Who, what, how did I get here, I know not this time this place, this home, my space. Cloudy, unrecognisable since you’ve left the hole in …

Passed Trauma

Passed Trauma Don’t ask me why I feel this way I do not know myself It’s a feeling of depression A sinking feeling Maybe closer to suicidal tendencies Brain anomalies and head aches In the wake of some trauma I cannot remember A memory passed through generations In my previous life I was an alien …

In the grand scheme of things…

Well, the last 12 months has been an eye opener of familial life, career, bullying, patterns of life, responsibilities and all the past memories or experiences I have gone through and still go through. There are some memories I cannot wipe away but manage them on a day to day, month to month basis. Some …

Me, Myself and I

There are many moments where inspiration comes to me and usually it’s when I turn the lights off and my head hits the pillow. I always think to myself I will remember this in the morning and then when morning comes I am usually thinking about 101 things for that day. So, tonight I decided …